Came across Psalm 125 yesterday:
Those who put their trust in the Lord
are like Mt. Zion, that cannot be shaken,
that stands forever.
Trust is the key to stability, to fearlessness. Trust means not always knowing why the trustee is doing a particular thing, but accepting that the trustee must do it, because we cannot do it ourselves. It means being okay with not having all the answers all the time.
Trust is difficult for someone like me. Someone who is very cerebral and likes to have all the answers all the time.
It is good to know God and know HIs word and His ways as much as we possibly can. But we can never know even our closest earthly friends so well as to completely understand everything they want and exactly what they are up to all the time. There will always be moments where they have to say to us, "Trust me."
How much more often, then, will God say to us, "Trust me," and how foolish would we be not to oblige.
In a relationship with an earthly friend, provided the friend is reliable and trustworthy, clarity as to what he is up to often comes only after our trust is placed in him.
Like in the movie Aladdin when the title character asks Princess Jasmine:
Do you trust me?
She doesn't know what he's up to until after she says, "Yyyeeeesss?"
Now again it is true: "Trust me" moments are easier the better we know someone. The better we know a person, the more confident we can be that he will not use our trust to take advantage of or hurt us. The second time Aladdin asks Jasmine if she trusts him, she says "Yes" with much greater ease and confidence that everything will be all right. So with God*.
But as with a regular person, we are limited by our singular vantage point. We can't know anyone completely. To demand to know a person completely before trusting is to trust no one ever.
So with God, when we stop trying to completely understand Him and His motives and simply trust Him, and let Him do His work in our hearts, the answers we wanted so badly before we trusted Him will naturally come to us. But trust has to come first.
Every morning when we wake up, God asks us: "Do you trust me?" And we have to answer Yes or No. If you answer yes, don't be surprised if He grabs your hand and tells you to jump.
*who similarly is trying to win our hearts, though dissimilarly not by disguising who He really is.